Fire

آری، آری ، زندگی زیباست زندگی آتشگهی دیرنده پا برجاست گر بیفروزیش، رقص شعله اش در هر کران پیداست ورنه، خاموش است وخاموشی گناه ماست سیاوش کسرایی / / / / / Life is like fire, can burns forever. If we turn it on we can see flame dances from far away, other wise its dark and thats our fault.

Its 0.38 on Monday morning,
3p70, 3p30's assignment is still left,
Listening to Robbie Wiliams, I luv an angel instead.
Shokoofa was saying " ghadre khoodeto bedoon" khili adame mahi hsti.
madar bozorg is awake doing gym stuff at bed.
parmida is sleeping here.
40 cheragh is not working, athe font doesn't work any more.
Gorbeh is going to U.S tomoroow.
Sourena didn't coem this weekend.
Homajan got "larz" again.
mam was saying some stuff about Homajan and my granpa, I didn't get wat was the story,
Dad delesh gerefteh bood
Ashk tooy cheshmay maman boood,

Gorbeh was trying to be a help.
ghamhaye dar del mandeye ziady shekofteh shod,
sedahayee ke modatgahay ziadi khamoosh moondeh bood dar del, be vozooh shenideh meshod
faryad haye luv me, and respecT me, and I'm here.

There is no blame on any body,
Don't know who miss what.
Don't know if every body feel this way after yrs, probably they do.

Don't know how much luv left.
just can here the voice of u should have loved me.

how can u show it?
Is every body's problem is just for them?

os should we share? even though if they don't want to talk about that?
remember Rosh, she said, her old firends, wouldn't wait for her permissiobn, to come and share ... they would just come, even though if we she would have say no.

we still do the "tarof". maybe part of culture, the way we raised. mayeb we learned not to respect our own idea's and "wat we want", in the way that we listen to them, and respond them.
Par was asking if she should go for cheer leading, probably dad didn't say any thing to her.
HE was complaining y s.s was working a night shift in piza piza.

Gorb was saying cuz man saram ra menzadazam miam paieen, they shoudl have been proud of me, i told her, I don't know if its part of my "khariat" or not.
i deleted " nokhod farangis" pic"k". i sitll told gorbeh if she wanted to see it. and when she siad ok , show it to me, i didn't find any reason to do it.
i t should be over.

Gorb was saying its ok to get married with the first guy. i told her it would give me feeling of being a looser, she said its just in ur mind...
If i live once, i really want to be a player ;)
Gorb was saying its jsut the ppl and culture here, that make me feel that way,
I told to my self" I'm living in this culture, and it didn't left so much of " the other culture" any more.
hey maryam if u r reading these, don't continue any more, the things i wanted u to read was "[ Sun Sep 14, 01:48:13 PM | P sr"

i know I am the only one who can love me, all the time, no oher i can have that expectation.
when Gorb was talking to me, got to the result that Maybe I am the older sis, not par. maybe I should advice her some times,
Gorb said taht cuz Par has so much of self confidence things changed vice versa